oh no.. its just one part of the game which i got sabotaged by the guys. it takes quite a lot of courage to put the milk bottle in my mouth yet we've to be fast because its a relay game. the cruise was better than i expected though. the first part was a little tough as the water's choppy and i could barely balanced myself. time flies when we're having fun. its only the drive back then i realised i am exhausted.

we talked. like for the longest time ever. not that i am rather interested but we hold such strong similiarties. its just like snap*, we knew what's its like. its mind blowing how the conversation is. i am not particularly good or stuff like that, i am just giving my very honest views. in personal life, we've different faces. different goals. different perspective. i, for one, do not rush into things. like what he said, being too rational becomes defensive and guarded. he, on the other hand, wants the best and i know he would. its just the many many past its still lingering inside without him knowing. for a moment, i know how lost and empty it is and only him, is able to walk out without having the one-carat holding him.

he knew me fairly well. well-shared desire and goals in our lifes. i told him nothing is holding me back as long i have no responsiblities and for now, i have all the time in the world. i have enough for a year and i am living for myself. i will move without explaining or answering to anyone. everyday without us knowing, we're influenced by the surroundings. before he left, "never fall for one who's in SAF, but who knows, he might be the 40%". how ironic it sounds but for as long i am breathing, i leave my love to luck. (: so whether its the 60 or 40 percent, i'm not pursuing anyone. he is a pilot by the way.

happy holiday!!!